© 2019 by Stella Scholaja.

LYRICS

The feelings that mattered enough to be put into words.

Summer Will Be Over

One day summer will be over

And it'll be October, you'll see

One day I will be a lot wiser

And climb a little higher than Flea

Some day when you know that this ain't true

Some day when your dreams don't follow through

Some day when you'll know that it wasn't real

Some day when you know that you can't fly

Some day when your dreams don't ought to lie

Some day you'll know that it wasn't me

'Cause it was all because of you

I know you love her

That's why you can't take away my soul

If you withhold me from the world they'll never ever know

What you could do for them

It's a plain world, you can't deny

But it's the truth of those who will never question reasons why

 

One day summer will be over

And it'll be October, you'll see

One day I will be a lot wiser

And climb a little higher than Flea

Some day when the trust just disappears

And I heal the way you feel

Then you'll know that you're not made of steel

And I just cannot reason with

What your dreams seem to give

Some day you'll know that it wasn't me

'Cause it was all because of you

You don't care for me 

I'm gonna spread a cure 'round your sleeve

If you keep sake of us 

People come and people leave

Trust nobody else

I cannot understand you la la lies 

And I see the truth

Aligning those who will never try

 

One day summer will be over

And it'll be October, you'll see

One day I will be a lot wiser

And climb a little higher than Flea

I know, I know oh oh

I know, I know oh oh

I know, I know oh oh

I know, I know oh oh

 

One day summer will be over

And it'll be October, you'll see

One day I will be a lot wiser

And climb a little higher than Flea

You don't care for me

I'm gonna spread a cure 'round your sleeve

Mania

You know I've been waiting for millennia

Grew tired of all that trauma 

I thought I had left far behind 

But I'm not blind, that's right

I'm mania and the magic you would feel when you're with me

Is a new level of free 

You wanted a flicker, instead you got a flame

You wanted sparks but instead I'm all game

I'm mania, how could you love me now?

I'm crazy and I'll hit the ground

Either he likes you or he don't

Either he'll want you or he won't

You know I've been trying to fill this void within

Struck down like a paper pin

I knew that this would never heal my heart

When we're apart I am scared

 

I'm mania and the magic you would feel when you're with me

Is a new level of free 

You wanted a flicker, instead you got a flame

You wanted sparks but instead I'm all game

I'm mania, how could you love me now?

I'm crazy and I'll hit the ground

Either he likes you or he don't

Either he'll want you or he won't

Come on mania now hit the drapes of the times

When you do that thing it's like I'm hypnotized

I don't really feel it but it's what you do

So just stay close and I'll come for you

I'm mania and the magic you would feel when you're with me

Is a new level of free 

You wanted a flicker, instead you got a flame

You wanted sparks but instead I'm all game

I'm mania, how could you love me now?

I'm crazy and I'll hit the ground

Either he likes you or he don't

Either he'll want you or he won't

I'm mania, how could you love me now?

I'm crazy and I'll hit the ground

Either he likes you or he don't

Either he'll want you or he won't

Cheaters

You’re just like them other cheaters

Always there to break a pretty girl’s heart

Leaving nasty scars

 

In the morning

I’m starring out the window

Till dawn falls in

I’m waiting for you indoors

But you’re with another girl

 

In the evening

I threw your sorry ass out

Right out of the door

In front of the crowd

 

And all your lies

And all your games

Can go to hell

That’s the right place

For you to stay

This is goodbye, babe

 

You’re just like them other cheaters 

Always there to break a pretty girl’s heart

Leaving nasty scars

You’re just like them other cheaters

Always there to break a pretty girl’s heart

Wait till I see your car

 

And I’m tryin’, I’m tryin’

And I’m tryin’, I’m tryin’

And I’m tryin’, I’m tryin’

But cheaters don’t do love, yeah

 

You come home and jump right in the shower

You even brought me flowers

Right then I know something’s wrong

Go ahead and check your phone

Then I see 

What you’ve been hiding from me

And your car will be then one

Who has to pay for it

 

You’re just like them other cheaters 

Always there to break a pretty girl’s heart

Leaving nasty scars

You’re just like them other cheaters

Always there to break a pretty girl’s heart

Wait till I see your car

 

And I’m tryin’, I’m tryin’

And I’m tryin’, I’m tryin’

And I’m tryin’, I’m tryin’

But cheaters don’t do love, yeah

 

And I’m tryin’

And I’m tryin’

And I’m tryin’

And I’m tryin’

But cheaters don’t do love

Reservation In Heaven

I’m at the rim of my heart

Can’t tell who’s there who is apart

It’s a deep gorge formed of stones

Hundred kilometers long

Colorful and wide

No one could even think of hiding

 

I’m at the cliff of my brain

Praying for pain to go away

Like telling you the story

Of my honey and my glory

Obsession and addiction 

Is the source of my love to you

 

I have a reservation in heaven

An identification 

An accommodation 

A little ID

Somewhere I can hide

And be able to fight

For myself tonight

 

I’m on a cloud in the sky

Watching all those people lie

Picking up on the dirt

You thought no one has ever heard

For giving out the truth

You thought no one would ever use

Texting through the world is the source of my love for you

 

I have a reservation in heaven

An identification 

An accommodation 

A little ID

Somewhere I can hide

And be able to fight

For myself tonight

 

I told you that I’d never forget

The one second that we first met

So let’s just get it over with

Our love died without a last kiss

Remember when I said goodbye?

I looked that fear in the eye

Told it what went wrong

But the stars won’t forget that you’re gone

 

I have a reservation in heaven

An identification 

An accommodation 

A little ID

Somewhere I can hide

And be able to fight

For myself tonight

 

I have a reservation in heaven

An identification 

An accommodation 

A little ID

Somewhere I can hide

And be able to fight

For myself tonight

 

I have a reservation in heaven

Fear

You're scared

Scared of your father

Scared he's not gonna love you

the way that I do

He says you gotta work

Work for 48 years

Till it finally pays off

And you can dry your tears

You question all your motives day after day

You try but you can, you cannot escape

It's all the lies you're trying to fake

You're fake

Oh it's the fear that's catching up to you

Standing right behind the distant door 

of endless torture

Don't you think it's time to disappear

Time to F*** the stupid fear 

And get the hell outta here

You're scared 

Scared of your father

Scared he's not gonna love you

The way that I do

Says you gotta work

Work for 48 years

till it finally pays off

and you can dry your tears

Come on inside I'm inviting you now

You don't have to be scared That you'll be punished 

For not cleaning up

'Cause you are waiting on something that ain't real

On Something you don't feel

But you try, you try, you try

You're in outlaw 

You're running from love

And you think you are so smart

You think you know what you want

But if I ask you, you don't

Say you feel so alive

When you go out each night

But you're dead inside

Like a soul without light

You could've stayed my friend in all of this

But instead you left and gave it a rest

Been a little full of

There's always time to disappoint

And for me to make the wrong choice

What can I say?

I like the noise

Oh it's the fear that's catching up to you

(Don't you think you know that by now?)

Oh it's the fear that's catching up to you

(Don't you think you know that by now?)

Oh it's the fear that's catching up to you

(You should really know that by now)

Song of All Songs

There was something about that day

Record studio interns don't stay

And I don't recall the first thing I had to say

I just know that we worked on that song

"Summer Will be Over", didn't take you very long

A pro on the guitar, a good guy at heart

Knock on that smile

awkward silence beats the rhyme

Wrote that song before I knew you

Not knowing that it would turn out to be true

Wrote another based on pure attraction 

Can't resist that letter jacket

First message was so cruel

It deemed the end to something so unusual

Now I drive by your house

With a friend that forced me to go out

Fact Is I ain't reckless, I ain't fine

Look what you brought me to do

I wrote the song of all songs dedicated to you

You left hooked on a feeling

Singing in the hallway, driving a red beetle

Dad's care as first date material

Would've gotten in if I wasn't in delirium 

Oh how I bet you found somebody better now

Our friendship was just a weight down

After all you left me in a heartbeat

Generous, what a gift to humanity

We talk till four in the morning

Prank calls become jokes

and records keep on turning 

You play them all night in the shed

The king of scrambled eggs knows exactly

what is meant

Now we drive past your street

I loved you for you for so many reasons

Fact is I ain't reckless, I ain't fine

Write me a song or refuse

I wrote the song of all songs dedicated to you

And no one could ever tell the story in it's truth

Not Marc, not me, not even you

And maybe for you it was just a waste of time

Know we never kissed

Doesn't mean what I felt wasn't right

Dear Mister 90 degrees

A thousand Fahrenheit

Hope you're doing fine

Know you sleep at night

Sitting on the balcony

You're looking at the stars

know I'm still breathing

Fact is we are reckless, we ain't fine

Vulfpeck, the Beetles and Muse

I wrote the song of all songs dedicated to you

Now look what you brought me to do

I wrote the song of all songs dedicated to you

Intro

The girl you knew, she's gone

She is gone

She tried but she failed

and she never came back as herself

The man you knew, he's gone

He is gone

He tried but he failed 

And he never came back as himself

Do you see me on the other side

of the waking mirror

When the feelings that you lost keep you up

And make it clearer

Don't really feel like talking

I don't really feel like Joking

I just feel like crying

There's no sense in knowing

Do you really understand what it means to be afraid?

Even though you reciprocate most of the feelings

Now it's time to return to your heart that's made of steel and

Do you know how many songs I wrote about that day?

Now here's what's left to say

She's gone

The girl you knew, she's gone

Made In Heaven

You and I, we never really got that far

we were made of bricks and broken parts

now all that's left is a big old scar

wasting time, sitting in a bar

i never really tell

i never really do

i never tried to be with you

i never really stay

i never really go

this i know

we were made in heaven

but we remained in hell

we were made of sticks and stones 

and never giving in

we were made of parts

that burn just like scars

but that's just who we are

that's just who we are, are

that's just who we are, are

you and I, we never really faces the truth

that i don't mean all that much to you

a match made in heaven might as well be doomed

I would lie if I said it wasn't cruel

i never really tell

i never really do

i never tried to be with you

i never really stay

i never really go

this i know

we were made in heaven

but we remained in hell

we were made of sticks and stones 

and never giving in

we were made of parts

that burn just like scars

but that's just who we are

that's just who we are, are

that's just who we are, are

this is it, I don't know

what good would it do if I asked you?

if I asked you

if you miss me, I know you don't

but I'm still holding on to hope

to hope

i never really tell

i never really do

i never tried to be with you

i never really stay

i never really go

this i know

we were made in heaven

but we remained in hell

we were made of sticks and stones 

and never giving in

we were made of parts

that burn just like scars

but that's just who we are

that's just who we are, are

that's just who we are, are

we were made in heaven

but we remained in hell

we were made of sticks and stones 

and never giving in

we were made of parts

that burn just like scars

but that's just who we are

that's just who we are, are

that's just who we are, are

Autumn Falls

One step, one breath rushing through me

I can't believe what I see, oh oh

Leaves are falling, earths are quaking

All of the sudden everyone's shaking

Coats everywhere, gloves upstairs

 

I see my reflection on the ice

I see my reflection on the other side of the mirror

I see you make my autumn leaves fall

And that's a good thing

So please stay with me until autumn falls

So I can break my walls

For you and only for you I let my autumn leaves fall

And that's a good thing

 

Two lights fall bright, often they know

How many doors they close, oh oh

Leaves are falling, earths are quaking

All of the sudden everyone's shaking

Heartache everywhere, no it's not fair

 

I see my reflection on the ice

I see my reflection on the other side of the mirror

I see you make my autumn leaves fall

And that's a good thing

So please stay with me until autumn falls

So I can break my walls

For you and only for you I let my autumn leaves fall

And that's a good thing

 

I see my reflection on the ice

I see my reflection on the other side of the mirror

I see you make my autumn leaves fall

And that's a good thing

So please stay with me until autumn falls

So I can break my walls

For you and only for you I let my autumn leaves fall

And that's a good thing

Dragon Bones

You come in and I've never been

So in awe, you're without a single flaw

I couldn't drink and I couldn't think

I dream of you and you have no clue

Baby come closer

Come on call me over

I don't need a reason why

Sell your should for the beauty of the gold

Believe this perfect lie

I don't have to love you, I don't have to care

So just take on this dare, oh oh, oh oh

I'm ma ma made of dragon bones and I'm not gonna wait

Your mountain fire gets me higher

Unleashing my desire

I want your skin on mine all the time

I want it know and I don't care when or how

I see truth in the things you do

Looking at me with such honestly

I couldn't breathe and I couldn't sleep

And I'm tired, please retire

Baby come closer

Come on call me over

I don't need a reason why

Sell your should for the beauty of the gold

Believe this perfect lie

I don't have to love you, I don't have to care

So just take on this dare, oh oh, oh oh

I'm ma ma made of dragon bones and I'm not gonna wait

Your mountain fire gets me higher

Unleashing my desire

I want your skin on mine all the time

I want it know and I don't care when or how

 

Baby come closer

Come on call me over

I don't need a reason why

Sell your should for the beauty of the gold

Believe this perfect lie

I don't have to love you, I don't have to care

So just take on this dare, oh oh, oh oh

I'm ma ma made of dragon bones and I'm not gonna wait

Your mountain fire gets me higher

Unleashing my desire

I want your skin on mine all the time

I want it know and I don't care when or how

 

I'm ma ma made of dragon bones and I'm not gonna wait

Your mountain fire gets me higher

Unleashing my desire

I want your skin on mine all the freaking time

I want it know and I don't care when or how

Love Is a Disease

We do have abnormal cell division

It controls our bodies and invades our tissues

Spreading through the blood system

Requiring high-end stitches

It takes all that we have

And leaves us with nothing left

 

From what we know to want we’ll be

It’s our fault that we can’t see

We’re poisoning our nerves with toxins

 

We go through cancer, DMD, ALS and biopsies

We go through hell and back

Have strokes at night and find fatal ends

Though there’s one thing we can’t see

Stuck in human nature

Declared to be released

I say love is a disease

It’s all that we breathe

It’s all that we eat

 

We all know obnoxious is a living

Through all the pain the world is keen on giving

In a materialistic society system

As I’m pulling the trigger of the golden pistol

Take all that you please

Sadly, love is a disease

 

From what we own to what we seek

It’s our fault that we can’t see

We’re poisoning our nerves with toxins 

 

We go through cancer, DMD, ALS and biopsies

We go through hell and back

Have strokes at night and find fatal ends

Though there’s one thing we can’t see

Stuck in human nature

Declared to be released

I say love is a disease

It’s all that we breathe

It’s all that we eat

 

It’s a verified drug

Set in our brain

Making heartache up

And all I want to hear

Is there’s cure for love

For this heart disease

We would love to be free

It’s all that we want 

It’s all that we need

 

We go through cancer, DMD, ALS and biopsies

We go through hell and back

Have strokes at night and find fatal ends

Though there’s one thing we can’t see

Stuck in human nature

Declared to be released

I say love is a disease

It’s all that we breathe

It’s all that we eat

Nights

45 minutes to go

Then we’re free, oh oh

Till the night awakens

And the stars draw faith in

You’ll know

‘Cause the nights will start to glow

Oh oh, oh oh

‘Cause the nights will start to glow

 

One more night

Then I’ll start living my life

I’ll hesitate from dreaming and keep on breathing

One more time, she said

Everything will be all right again

Then you’ll come clean

With your fears, your wishes and your dreams

 

35 minutes to go

Then we’re free, oh oh

Till the night awakens

And the stars draw faith in

You’ll know

‘Cause the nights will start to glow

Oh oh, oh oh

‘Cause the nights will start to glow

 

One more favor

That’s what I’m gonna ask for

Let us leave earlier 

So we can dance the night away

I wish that I could change my life

Move on to the other side

But as long as I’m here

I gotta make it count

And let ‘em cheer

 

25 minutes to go

Then we’re free, oh oh

Till the night awakens

And the stars draw faith in

You’ll know

‘Cause the nights will start to glow

Oh oh, oh oh

‘Cause the nights will start to glow

 

10 more minutes

Keep ‘em high above the limit 

Let those nights speak for themselves

Let me hear you dance

 

5, 4, 3, 2, 1

Let’s go, have fun

Only Heaven Knows

We have a reservation in heaven, you and me

We are gonna meet somewhere

There under candle light

Can’t wait to have you back by my side 

After a dark and starless, lonely night 

 

Angels are gonna tell me a secret

Something I can believe in

Angels are gonna guide my way

'Til the brink of my last day

I feel your voice

I feel your skin

I feel your tears 

I feel your grin

 

Now God tell me if this is just a game

If the wheel of life spins randomly

Only heaven know if it is gonna be

You and me at the end of all of this

Now all that I feel is pure rage

‘Cause you’re dead and that’s not gonna change

Angels are gonna tell me a secret

Something I can believe in

Angels are gonna guide my way

'Til the brink of my last day

(Where I can make sense of this pain)

 

I feel your voice

I feel your skin

I feel your tears 

I feel your grin

I feel all that you are

And all that you were

I can’t believe we’ve come this far

Look how high we have set the bar

 

Now God tell me if this is just a game

If the wheel of life spins randomly

Only heaven know if it is gonna be

You and me at the end of all of this

Now all that I feel is pure rage

‘Cause you’re dead and that’s not gonna change

 

Only heaven knows if it's gonna be and me in the end

Only heaven knows if it's gonna be you and me in the end

And all of this pain, all of their trust just will not be enough

If my love can't bring you back to me

'Cause you're dead and that's not gonna change

 

Now God tell me if this is just a game

If the wheel of life spins randomly

Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh

Dirty From the Ashes

You're still dirty from the ashes

that they left upon your grave

But don't let them strip away all of your pain

It's yours to keep and it's your to need

Every tear is better than a "no" you didn't mean

You're still dirty from the ashes

That they left upon your grave

But don't let them strip away all of your pain

I would've killed myself

a long long long long time ago

But I couldn't bare the thought

of leaving only you alone

Yet there is so much to do

So much to say and so much to know

In a world that nowadays

cannot even give you hope

You should know better than to go with the flow

But assholes always know

What to do when they're low

They get up and go

Blow out their lights

Goodbye

You don't want me to wait for you

What made you think I would?

I wasn't planning to

Get your things and go

Boy this ain't your show

I rose up from the dead

I might do it again

Rub of the dust

Clean the rust

Of what I have been

This time I won't be standing lonely 

In the eye of the hurricane

I'm still dirty

dirty from the ashes

that they left upon your grave

But don't let them strip away all of your pain

It's yours to keep and it's your to need

Every tear is better than a "no" you didn't mean

I would've killed myself

a long long long long time ago

But I couldn't bare the thought

of leaving only you alone

Yet there is so much to do

So much to say and so much to know

In a world that nowadays

cannot even give you hope

I would've killed myself

a long long long long time ago

I would've killed Myself

a long Long long long time ago

If I hear one more shrink

juggling 'round a positive thought

I don't really need opinions

chatting up the next world war

I don't care you don't understand

Get in line, get some dirt on your hands

And I know you're not used to my telling the truth

But baby I'm just as dirty as you

You don't want me to wait for you

(long long time ago)

Boy this ain't your show

(long long time ago)

Get your things and go

(Long long time ago)

Sweet Florida

I'll be leaving this city tonight

Ain't no reason to stay and fight

'Cause it will go ahead and drown me

In my own sorrow you'll trap me

You think It's enough 

That I'm alive and though

Fighting all the battles

No one wants me to settle

Everyone says you're okay

If you live another day

That was yesterday

Sweet sweet Florida come save my soul

Sweet bleak nothing I will call home

I'll be running to the end of the world

to be alone

'Cause you were the cherry on top of all

The lies I've been told

Now I'm awaiting my final curtain call

I'll be leaving my city tonight, oh

Waiting for some of them cowards 

To stand up and say "stay Stella, stay"

But I can't, I feel bad

And I know I've been wrong

Many times and I'm scared

But I need you to know

That I'm dying, I won't be alive for long

I'm not scared to die, no I'm not scared no more

Sweet sweet Florida come save my soul

Sweet bleak nothing I will call home

I'll be running to the end of the world

to be alone

'Cause you were the cherry on top of all 

The lies I've been told

Now I'm awaiting my final curtain call

My heart is long over cure and healing

All my tears used to be the fear that

Held inside all my distant feelings

I can't speak but I can leave

Sweet sweet Florida come save my soul

Sweet bleak nothing I will call home

I'll be running to the end of the world

to be alone

'Cause you were the cherry on top of all

The lies I've been told

Now I'm awaiting my final curtain call

Sweet sweet Florida

You will save my soul

Never Be the Same

When the music starts to play

You'll hear a siren sing

You'll never be the same

All the drama when really it is just another day

But you'll never be the same

You'll never be the same

in the moment you're not tamed

In that tainted bitter love

You'll never be the same

Though it's just another day

When you know it's your first love

from the east of adria

Back to the western shore

I wanna hear you calling my name

open your eyes 

look through the further sky and see

what they're doing to you

all their lies and their cheating it needs to stop

then you'll be doing better than I ever was

When the music starts to play

You'll hear a siren sing

You'll never be the same

All the drama when really it is just another day

But you'll never be the same

You'll never be the same

in the moment you're not tamed

In that tainted bitter love

You'll never be the same

Though it's just another day

When you know it's your first love

From the east of adria

Back to the western shore 

I wanna hear you calling my name

Open your eyes and see

There's nothing you can't be 

you'll never be the same

stop playing their game

all their lies and their cheating it needs to stop

then you'll be doing better than I ever was

When the music starts to play

You'll hear a siren sing

You'll never be the same

All the drama when really it is just another day

But you'll never be the same

You'll never be the same

in the moment you're not tamed

In that tainted bitter love

You'll never be the same

Though it's just another day

When you know it's your first love